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Horrible Mood

I have been in a horrible mood lately. Last 3 days have been off. Red Robin wants me to move into management. It isn't what I like. I seem to settle for second best. I took it because once again I do not feel in control. I don't feel loved or needed. I am putting fatima out of my mind for a minute and i feel alone, lonely, vulnerable, and upset.

I settled once again. Fatima wants more time with Erika than me...Erika is going through a tough time. I am trying to allow Fatima the space she needs. Sometimes I am overly needy. I admit it...am i wrong? I need to feel (emphasize feel) loved. Last 2 days have made me feel unimportant. Both in work and in love. Fatima is spending lots of time with Erika. Maybe I should...stop making assumptions as always...Brain...for once in your life..SHUT THE FUCK UP. Fatima loves you she is just occupied with Kah-Kah because of the divorce.

Let it be known I have needs. Fatima may be able to go weeks or months without seeing me, howe…

Today Was A Good Day

Had a fantastic morning with Fatima. I think the main reason is that we both love each other so much. She is amazing. It is pretty fantastic to think that I wasnt loved in my marriage and then I met Fatima and now I realize how I deserve to be treated. She loves me so much. She would never hurt me. I am so thankful I met her. She is wonderful

Until next time...