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About a year ago...

I walked away from a 5 year relationship with a great person. Are we friends now...no. Is that sad, a little bit. Were we compatible, no. We were too different beings who graced each others presence and made things better temporarily. We spent five years learning about each other, we neglected each other, we forgot to figure out what makes the other tick. Was it a negative experience, never. It was enriching and well needed in my life.

Although we are not friends anymore, I still respect her immensely, although she hates me. Does that bother me, no. Life is what it is. I choose to live in love and not in hate or fear. She is a very strong person and has a big heart. I wish her all the happiness in life. She has a smile that can warm a room full of ice cubists... She has a laugh that gets into your being and makes you laugh. She is woman and she is mighty.

In reflecting on ths experience, i found myself listening to a song by sheryl crow. Reminded me that i am human and i still feel. The song came out at a time when we were experiencing a separation. As i listen to the words, once again i am reminded that even the hardest hearted person still has emotions. Its the one thing we cant get rid of...or can we?

Here are the lyrics, check out the song when you have a chance. Hope everyone has a super holiday and is able to spend some great time with family and friends. Love every moment and cherish the silly little nuances that drive you crazy sometimes.



"Perfect Lie"

Burn like a cigarette
All inside my head
Reminding me not to forget
Words, words I'd never say
Things along the way
Their telling me that I'm the best

'Cause your face it doesn't look like it did
You give away everything now that you've hid
You, you want to be only
To never get lonely
So you opened up your arms and took me in
And this our last goodbye
And this is a perfect lie
Told by someone that I used to know back then

Help, help is on the way
That's what they all say
It's a thing that they don't know
'Cause I, I know everything
And maybe it's just a ring
But that won't make me let it go

Look at your face it doesn't look like it did
You give away everything now that your here
You, you want to be only
To never get lonely
So you opened up your arms and let me in
And this our last goodbye
And this is a perfect lie
Told by someone that I used to know back then

Look at your face doesn't look like it did
You hide your love
But your not willing now to give, willing now to give
You, you want to be only
To never get lonely
So you opened up your arms and let me in
And this our last goodbye
And this is a perfect lie
Told by someone that I used to know back then

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