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Amazingly blessed...

Sometimes when i look at my life and really analyze it, i realize how blessed i am and it makes me cry. The amazing friends i have made who chime in at all the right moments, the journeys i have been on, and the sights i have seen. Its not tears of sadness, its tears of joys from all of the blessings that i have in my life.

My three kitties were so excited to see me. I look in their eyes and I swear i have a hard time holding back all of the tears. I feel the love they give me on a daily basis. They in some wierd way realize that i have to work, but when i do come home, they are so happy to see me.

I leave this blog simple and thankful. I am going to see Greg Laswell tonight so I paste the words in hopes that his music will move you as much as it does me...

I'm going to see some friends from out of state
The very trip that you were supposed to take a while
But it fell through
Like all of you
Like all of you

Thought i'd make the drive but a free plane ride is in
the air
And just like that my fear of it disappeared
Like all of you
Like all of you

And i look high and low for yesterday
High and low for you and i
High and low

Once i can see straight i might move somewhere cold
Seattle or the bay area; to see your ghost
What's left of you
What's left of you

And i look high and low for yesterday
High and low for you and i
High and low

Found a letter from a man i might have met, addressed
to you
And i'll steal the words he ended with:
I miss you
And i do
Miss you
And i do

High and low for yesterday
High and low for you and i
High and low

Please check out the song here.


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