Skip to main content


We are all struggling right now, in one form or another.  Some of us are struggling with addictions like coffee, exercise or the lack there of.  There is a sense that things are changing  by the minute.  I cant help but think about my parents generation where they worked for a company for many years and saved a bit, and then retired.  Some people didn't do that and worked until they couldn't work anymore.

Now we are in the new age.  Everybody is losing faith in the corporate model.  People are quitting their jobs, it seems to follow their own dreams.  We jump jobs more than we jumped puddles growing up as kids and the result.  We are constantly looking for that next thing.  We are looking outside of ourselves for something that exists inside of us.  The problem is that the thing that exists inside of us, will never pay us money.

I read all these articles of people quitting their jobs to pursue "their inner passion".  Part of me says, "Hey thats a great idea", but the rational side of me says, its bullshit.  As much as I like the argument that you have to do what you love, the reality is, this life isn't easy.  We are bred to believe that we are entitled to a fairy tale.  Every movie you watch is someone struggling to make it better than the life they had.  The problem exists is that when they work that hard and overcome, the struggle is lost because the kids end up inheriting that fortune and then never recognize the struggles themselves.

If I were ever to have kids, I wouldn't want them to have it easier than I did.  The battles I have fought, the demons I have faced, have made me stand exactly where I am in the skin that I was born with.  I don't want to know that generations of youngsters after me had nothing to fight for. I don't want to be responsible for the the demise of the struggle, because that is the shit that is real.  That is the stuff that defines our character.  Its the things that make us realize we are human; the loss of a family member or a close pet, the car accident that took something from you, the living in your car for 6 months-that is the stuff that truly matters as it builds your character.

Remember that when you read all these articles on mediums, blogs, news reports, or articles, they are based on opinion.  My opinion is shit...Im just gonna throw that out there because what I say isn't gospel and it may resonate within you, but the truth is your light, your truth, is within you, never without.  Make sure you are reading the internet with observant and skeptical eyes.  Nothing is fact, and NOTHING is written in stone. You write your pages daily and as much as we want to fit into a group, we are individuals and we will die that way.  Don't get sucked into the mire of "belonging" just because you relate to an author.  You are unique to you and its important to never lose those qualities.

Be yourself, be bold, be brash, be incomprehensible, be remote, be simple, be kind, be daring, be silly, be alive, be selfish, be sad, be amazed, be humble, be direct, be stern, be smelly, be funny, be dumb, be apologetic, be grateful, be whatever....because in the end, we are all perishable

Until next time.


Popular posts from this blog

Feels like a throat punch to my heart

So, I thought today was going to be just another Sunday of lounging around and netflixing.  I don't think I have ever been so wrong in my life.  To start with, Facebook reminded me of my memories.  I happened to click on a friends link and decided to follow another link to my very first girlfriends sisters page.  Its random how I got there, but I blame facebook.

To my shock, I saw that her sister had passed on the 22nd of November.  I was shocked because I knew that she wasn't that old.  I reached out to an old mutual acquaintance and found out it was pretty sudden and unexpected.  That had me in some kinda mood.  Because of that, I began to text and email friends and check in and make sure then were okay.

I got a text message from a close colleague I used to work with at a previous job.

Beck: "whats shakin CB"
Me: "Not much just wanted to say hello.  Had a wake up call today.  Found out first girlfriends sister just passed away.  So sad...she was young"

Screw back up plans

Yes I said it.  Yes I have had quite a few unsuccessful ventures and I have recently started reading blogs that suggest backup plans.  I don't agree and I will tell you why.

When you have a back up plan you have an "oh shit that didn't work and I have to do something about it". Its like whatever it is going on in your life is going to fail or stop being at some point. Newsflash: You are correct!  NOTHING lasts forever. Your job, your marriage, your income stream, your family and most certainly not your startup or your job.  For those of you wishing to go back to the old days, its not going to happen.  The age of chivalry is dying and the startup that you create will be dead within 10-15 years.  We don't live in our parents or grandparents economy. Hell the way we communicate is changing. See example below and try and decipher what I am saying to you


Did you figure it out yet.  If so, please pat yourself …

Just a friendly update on me :-)

Hey everyone

Just wanted to give an update. You may remember that I said I was going to be coming back to California, well it is official.  I am heading down May 1. I will most likely take the train and stop in Napa to visit my cousin Stephen Bordes at his winery for a day or two.  From there, I will catch a train to San diego.

I am currently looking for work and open to any positions that may be available, I just ask that you don't hold it against me because I have a masters degree.  I have seen many companies shy away from hiring me because I have a Masters Degree.  I am honestly looking to get off my feet and find a base of operation. My home is California and I know that now.  I am native and the air, soil and water are in my bones.

I am looking to establish which means I will need to find a place to live (that I pay for monthly), maybe even get a car (down the road) for now I know that I will have to use the bus and I am okay with that. I am nervous as hell about this move …