Reality...
Well I was going through some old stuff of mine and found a video that Fatima made for me/us after our first two years together.
Needless to say, it hurt, deep. I don't know what made me look at it but for whatever reason i did and i gotta tell ya, i cried and am still crying. I guess there is something in the finality of it all. Realizing it is over. Reflecting back thinking that she would be the one I wanted to marry and spend my days with. Seeing how much i have aged.
It is definately a tough pill to swallow. I needed it to remind me that I have emotions and that I do hurt. I have the ability to feel and still have emotions. I empathize with all those who have loved and lost. I guess I forgot.
It is always good to get a lesson in humanity. Sometimes we forget or we chose not to see things or ignore them. This day was chosen for me to remember and I thank the universe for that.
Remember: It isn't what you have, it is what you have learned.
Needless to say, it hurt, deep. I don't know what made me look at it but for whatever reason i did and i gotta tell ya, i cried and am still crying. I guess there is something in the finality of it all. Realizing it is over. Reflecting back thinking that she would be the one I wanted to marry and spend my days with. Seeing how much i have aged.
It is definately a tough pill to swallow. I needed it to remind me that I have emotions and that I do hurt. I have the ability to feel and still have emotions. I empathize with all those who have loved and lost. I guess I forgot.
It is always good to get a lesson in humanity. Sometimes we forget or we chose not to see things or ignore them. This day was chosen for me to remember and I thank the universe for that.
Remember: It isn't what you have, it is what you have learned.
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