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Funny about women

This is from my Aunt...very funny. We don’t ask much..... It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be: 1. A friend 2. A companion 3. A lover 4. A brother 5. A father 6. A master 7. A chef 8. An electrician 9. A carpenter 10. A plumber  11. A mechanic 12. A decorator 13. A stylist 14. A sexologist  15. A gynecologist 16. A psychologist 17. A pest exterminator 18. A psychiatrist 19. A healer 20. A good listener 21. An organiser  22. A good father 23. Very clean 24. Sympathetic 25. Athletic  26. Warm 27. Attentive 28. Gallant 29. Intelligent 30. Funny 31. Creative 32. Tender 33. Strong 34. Understanding 35. Tolerant  36. Prudent 37. Ambitious 38. Capable 39. Courageous  40. Determined 41. True 42. Dependable 43. Passionate 44. Compassionate WITHOUT FORGETTING TO: 45. Give her compliments regularly 46. Love shopping 47. Be honest 48. Be ...

Movie Review: "Everything Must Go"

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4 out of 5 stars Synopsis: Nick Halsey, played by Will Ferrell gets fired from his job because of his uncontrollable alcoholism.  Right after the opening scene, Nick is fired by his boss Gary (Glenn Howerton) and is given a pocket knife as consolation for his 16 years of service.  The situation goes from bad to worse when Nick gets home and finds all of his stuff out on the lawn, locks and garage door changed.  He friends the next door neighbor, Samatha, played by Rebecca Hall (The Town, Vicky Cristina Barcelona).  She has just moved from New York due to her husbands promotion.  After meeting the neighbor, Nick returns to his yard to meet Kenny Loftus, who is a kid whose mom is overseeing a dying elder woman in the community and has taken temporary residence there to watch after her until she dies.  Kenny is left to roam the streets and happens to friend Nick through fate. Review:  I have to say I am impressed by all characters in this movie....

Giving thanks on Mothers Day

So I didn't really know what to write today.  I woke up at about 7:30 and was extremely exhausted from last night.  I helped my aunt and uncle selling tickets for Jacaranda, a production that they put on every month through the church.  My Aunt was elected director, either for this month or possibly forever.  She asked me if I would help out and I gladly obliged.  I helped set up the computers for credit card sales.  We only had about 20 credit card sales and the show was a success. At 8:15 I drove to my friend Shireen's bar that she manages, Pete's cafe and bar , which has a fantastic ambiance and really good food.  I had never been to any restaurants downtown so it was fun to visit Petes and catch up with Shireen.  She is doing fantastic and has been a great friend throughout the years.  I met Shireen in 2007 working an event at the Roosevelt and we hit it off instantly.  We have stayed in touch ever since.  I have to admit tha...

Update on Mom...

So the great news is she is doing much better.  She was moved to a convalescent home on Tuesday.  She was a bit anxious, but after the move she settled in.  She is staying at: Topanga Terrace in room 225.  She is so excited to see visitors and seems to be much clearer in her thoughts and logic.  She is writing very well and is maintaining good conversation and staying on topic. When I came in today, she was sitting on the side of the bed with the occupational therapist, and got the biggest smile on her face.  It truly warms your heart to see your mom come back from such a weakened state to have such an amazing expression on her face.  The Occupational therapist said Agneta sat up on her own and said she seems very anxious to get started on getting around. Her chest sounds fantastic and she has minor mucous that she is coughing up.  Today they replaced her bed with an air mattress and she got her toes done and they gave her a foot massage.  Christina and I both joked with mom that she ...

Happy Monday

This is from the Universe, well actually Mike Dooley, but still brilliant in all.  I get these daily.  I can tell you that hope and faith is a good thing to have.  If you don't have any, reach out to friends, neighbors or me.  If you do have faith and hope, do something good for someone other than yourself today, even if that is to give a smile or make someone laugh, offer to pay for someones breakfast, or carrying groceries for someone.  We are our greatest when we work together. "It's like every single life is being played out inside its own tiny, little bubble. Floating effortlessly in the wind, alongside billions and billions of other bubbles. Yet interestingly enough, while it's quite easy to peer inside other bubbles and notice what is or is not happening there, what they do and do not have, comparing to the point of envy or gloating, it's equally easy to notice, though so few do, that all of the bubbles are floating home, where everyone is equally worthy, im...

Day 9 ICU-getting better

Well things are better since my last blog.  Mom is sleeping a lot and being taken care of fantastically by the staff here at West Hills Hospital.  She seems to be in less pain than usual and is slowly adjusting to the trach tube in her throat.  Her stats are good.  O2 saturation is about 98% BP is 117/60 and Respiration rate is about 22. They had to take her off feeding tube again as she was not absorbing everything and they are probably going to cut her dose down to 30 instead of 45 and hour.  He color is back and she is resting peacefully.  I try to spend as much time with her as possible.  8-12 hours a day and I think now that she is a bit more lucid, it makes a difference.  She feels at ease. Its interesting because to me it is a reversal of life.  When you think about being a kid, you always want your mom.  When you are hurt, you want your mom. First day of school, you are nervous to leave your moms safety, but you fly the coop anyway.  Mom is in that same place now where she alwa...

Day 5 with mom in ICU

You can't imagine the emotions that run through your head when someone you love is hooked up to wires and tubes and feels pain.  I don't know what is worse, the anxiety attacks she has or the pain from getting sucked through the trach tube.  I think the worse part for me is not being able to do anything.  Even being here I feel useless, emotionally drained and stressed beyond belief.  I try to breathe but get over taken by emotions. I am also stressed because of the move and giving up everything.  I am not upset because I know if roles were reversed, mom would do it for me.  I dread having to go back to my old place in Leucadia and get the rest of my stuff, not for any other reason than seeing my kitties.  I know they are going to be okay because they are going into good hands, however, for me it is more than that.  I had to abandon my favorite dog 11 years ago, Jasmine.  I had no place to put her as I was moving in with a friend, and he had a dog already.  It broke my heart to...

Doubt...

Day 2 I hear her cough, I twinge; I see her twinge, i squirm I can't help wanting to run to her rescue every time she moves. Can I calm her anxiety when she wakes up. The tracheotomy was today and the surgery was a success. I can't help but doubt my existence every time she hurts. I don't know why but it is built into my system. I want to fix everything and make it all better. I guess it comes from watching parents with alcohol problems when I was younger. My mom is a sweet angel and sometimes I can't fix it and I get frustrated. I have to take a step back and breathe. Sometimes i feel so alone and helpless, like no matter what I do, it will never be close to enough. I never realized how hard this was going to be. I tell people that there is never an obstacle that cant be overcome, but then I am faced with this and doubt enters my mind like a snake climbing up through a tree branch. I begin to ask questions like, "maybe if I would have been more re...

Mom and Cancer

I awoke at 4:25, 15 minutes before my alarm was scheduled to go off. I went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and washed my face. I planned out the logistics of loading the boxes into my car so that I could be on the road by 6a.m. I loaded the boxes that I could fit not leaving an inch to spare. Grabbed my laptop and canvas rollerbag filled with clothes books and toiletries and headed out the door. First stop, 7-11 for a trusty cup of coffee and a muffin as well as some milk. I hit the road right at 6:20 and drove straight up to West Hills Hospital, where my mom was admitted the night before. Christina and Don took turns making sure she was okay and being treated well. I arrived to the hospital at 9:45 and made my way up to my mom's room. I was greeted by a silent hello and then saw my mom lying there as I walked in. Nothing in the world can prepare you for cancer and how quickly the disease destroys its host. She was extremely underweight and it showed. I had ...

It's not a sign of the times, its a sign of our collective decisions...

So I just listened to this song this morning and it brought me to my emotional place. I had to attach the lyrics because they hit me so hard at this particular moment in my life. And after the storm, I run and run as the rains come And I look up, I look up, on my knees and out of luck, I look up. Night has always pushed up day You must know life to see decay But I won't rot, I won't rot Not this mind and not this heart, I won't rot. And I took you by the hand And we stood tall, And remembered our own land, What we lived for. And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears. Get over your hill and see what you find there, With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair. And now I cling to what I knew I saw exactly what was true But oh no more. That's why I hold, That's why I hold with all I have. That's why I hold. I will die alone and be left there. Well I guess I'll just go home, Oh...

I'm going deep, so brace yourself...

I have been contemplating, searching and looking for answers and for every answer, I get 5 questions. Maybe I shouldn't be looking for answers but for questions? I think I have been going at it all wrong and can't help but think we all have. A great friend and I went to go see the documentary, "I AM" and I must say, that this movie affected me and inspired me to look at the world in which I have been living for so long. It has forced me to question everything I ever learned and many of the beliefs that I have held so sacred for so long. I may make a mess of this, but I will try to keep you informed, educated and following me as I go through this. 1. We all have a purpose on this earth. If you think it is to be a millionaire or live in a huge mansion or to be doing something other than your god given talent, you may want to re assess. 2. All of the things around us are built to keep us content or to satisfy our human condition. Its kind of like the question, what ...

So there's this thing...

That I have figured out while walking around on this journey, and that is, I am a gypsy. I love to travel, no scratch that...I need to travel. Its in my blood. The reason that I never settled down and had children was so that I could see the rest of the world and the amazingly beautiful places that exist. I have figured that much of my current discontent lies with my inability to get on a plane and go anywhere. With my mom's cancer being back it has shaken my world from the core out. I think my naivety in thinking is that we will never get old and never die. I know that now to be the farthest thing from the truth. I awoke one day and realized that I am not making it financially in this world, but I have a gift to enlighten others and to heal them, so that is why I made the decision to sell any remaining "stuff" I had and come live with my mom. I may not heal her but I know that me being around her helps. I have had a hard time with all of it really. Not hard in t...

So there is this song...

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Love this album btw Its called, "Two Sisters" Lryics start out. "I'm in love with two sisters Only weapons can decide Whose bed I share tonight" Okay so not really. I just thought it was appropriate for this entry. I had the opportunity to meet Mischa and Leslie this weekend while auditioning for The X-Factor. It started at 6;30 in the morning on a cold Saturday in Los Angleles (If you can believe it ever gets cold here...it actually does). I was one of the last ones to get into the line for wristbands and tickets on this day. I was blessed to be next to Mischa and her sister. At first we didn't say much, but after we had been standing for a while it only made sense to begin talking to like minded crazies around us. In our group was Marvin, Gina, Deena, Mischa, her sister Leslie and me. We all somehow clicked. I can't really explain it but the energy was really good. I love it when you meet people and they aren't a drag. You act...

Letter from Japan-please read.

My Aunt Christina Shared this and I find it to be brilliantly inspiring. From Anne Thomas (I don't know her personally, this was just forwarded to me) in Sendai, Japan where she has lived for the past decade teaching English. Very moving!! Hello My Lovely Family and Friends, First I want to thank you so very much for your concern for me. I am very touched. I also wish to apologize for a generic message to you all. But it seems the best way at the moment to get my message to you. Things here in Sendai have been rather surreal. But I am very blessed to have wonderful friends who are helping me a lot. Since my shack is even more worthy of that name, I am now staying at a friend's home. We share supplies like water, food and a kerosene heater. We sleep lined up in one room, eat by candlelight, share stories. It is warm, friendly, and beautiful. During the day we help each other clean up the mess in our homes. People sit in their cars, looking at news on their navigation scree...

The X-Factor

So many of you may know about my intention to try out of x-factor. If not, you are now in the know. I figured the reason nothing else seems to be working out is because this is the direction I am supposed to be going. I haven't nailed down a song yet but will by tomorrow night at the latest. I made a list of songs and would like to throw it out there and see what you guys think. If there is a song on this list that you don't see that you think I may be good at, drop me a line at twitter @chadbordes Songs are: Time and Again Aha Birthright Aha The winner takes it all Abba Amonia Ave Alan Parsons project Try Asher Book Be yourself Audioslave Fire and Rain James Taylor Call & Answer Bare Naked Ladies And so it goes Billy Joel Sorry seems to be Elton John Three Little birds Bob Marley Everything I own Bread Lost and all alone Bread Just the way you are Bruno Where angels fear to tread Bryan Adams I was only dreamin Bryan Adams Letting the cables sleep...

Seventy Five and Ninteen Years of Marriage Togehter

So I drove up to my aunt and uncles house last night to visit my mom. I am trying to be a good son and visit my mom every weekend or every other weekend as she goes through one of the biggest struggles in her life. She has been living with Don and Christina, who I like to call the angels of West Hills, for almost 10 years now. When my mom was first diagnosed with cancer, it was Christina who jumped in with both feet and began to research alternate treatments. Don was always busy driving them to the hospital for tests and staying over when mom would have an overnight visit. Both of them have been a complete and utter blessing in my moms life as well as mine. Today marks a special day in both of their lives as Don just turned 75. He moved here in 1977 and has been a strong part of the community ever since. He has seen the community grow and change over the decades and has remained humble through it all. Don and Christina have been married for 19 years today also, which is a...

God lives under the bed.

From my awesome mom... I love you and you always seem to know when to send the best stuff... GOD LIVES UNDER THE BED I envy Kevin.. My brother, Kevin, thinks God lives under his bed. At least that's what I heard him say one night. He was praying out loud in his dark bedroom, and I stopped to listen,'Are you there, God?' he said. 'Where are you? Oh, I see. Under the bed...' I giggled softly and tiptoed off to my own room. Kevin's unique perspectives are often a source of amusement. But that night something else lingered long after the humor. I realized for the first time the very different world Kevin lives in. He was born 30 years ago, mentally disabled as a result of difficulties during labor. Apart from his size (he's 6-foot-2), there are few ways in which he is an adult. He reasons and communicates with the capabilities of a 7-year-old, and he always will. He will probably always believe that God lives under his bed, that Santa Claus is ...

is this life?

As i breathe the stagnant air that the air conditioner pumps into my face I look out the window at the buildings and the sunshine. I think to myself, "I am not connected to this planet in any way at the moment" The seconds tick like bombs going off in my head Did I do something wrong? Why cant I see outside of this. My bubble is closed and I can't reach out I cant sing, I can't see Who am I and why am I here? I look at the other zombies around me all miserable in their own way Sucking down caffeine and nicotine to make it through the day. Who am I and why am I here? This is no life, but rather just an existence I am a zombie and go through the motions I can't vacation, and the routine is the same day in and day out I stare at my screen wondering who will call and complain next If they realize how insignificant their problem is in the grand scheme of things I wonder why they feel the need to yell What did I ever do to you... This life, this time isn't real I ...

Movie Review: Rango

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4.5 out of 5 stars I wasn't sure what I was getting into when I agreed to see Rango. I'll admit that I wanted to see it every since seeing the first preview. My friend Marshall was talking it up like crazy. The preview kind of hooked me, well that and the fact that I love Johnny Depp, wheter as an actor or just as a mere voiceover as he was in this movie. The other factor that was turning me slightly away was that there was no hint of a plot direction. Rango: So you want something to believe in? [ points at the "Sheriff" sign ] Rango: Believe in that there sign. For as long as it hangs there we've got hope. I think in life we go see movies without any knowledge of what the movie means or what it is about, other times the movie chooses us. Movie opens and we find out that Rango, which is not his real name, is not a hero but far from it. Although he has no clue who he is, the director makes us see that he wants a chance to be a hero and to leave ...

No matter what the circumstance, its your choice..

How do you choose to live your life. Its not over until YOU say it is. Thank you aunt christina for sharing this true gem of a video. This is advertising at its finest. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vksdBSVAM6g&feature=player_embedded

The power of music...just be open

"Doubt startin' to creep in, everyday it's just so grey and black. Hope, I just need a ray of that 'Cause no one sees my vision When I play it for 'em, they just say it's wack. But they don't know what dope is. And I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this. All I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest. You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you. Before the life of me, I don't see why you don't see like I do. But it just dawned on me; you lost a son. See this light in you? It's dark. Let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you. I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue."     "It hurts when I see you struggle. You come to me with ideas. You say that these are pieces, so I'm puzzled. 'Cause the sh-t I hear is crazy, But you're either getting lazy, or you don't believe in you no more. Seems like your own opinions, not one you can ...

Dear Dad...

Dear Dad... W ell its been almost 11 years since you passed.  It seems a lot has changed since you were here, or at least it seems to me.  The biggest thing I notice is that you are not around for me to call anymore when I have those bad days.  I miss hearing your voice on the other end of the line.  Sometimes you gave advice and other times you just listened.  I always counted on you being there and I kinda miss it every so often. Mom is doing okay.  She misses you the most, although, i would say it is a tie.  She has her health issues, but she she is doing okay. I try to visit her as often as I possibly can. She is getting fragile but still as beautiful as you remember her.  She has a smile that warms the core of my being and our relationship since you passed has become incredibly strong.  If I can't come visit, I try and give her a call weekly just to let her know that I love her.  She is still an avid crossword and now souduku puzzle figure-outer (I just made that word, I know...

Movie Review: After the Wedding

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This was an interesting look at the human condition and what really drives us. Do humans always sell out to money, or do they consider the greater good? How do we determine where our life is best served, or is that decided for us? The story is that of Jacob Pederson, who manages an orphanage in India. He loves his children but the facility is in desperate need of funding. He is sought out by an investor that is apparently impressed by what he does and makes a journey to Copenhagen. Upon his arrival he is taken to a fantastically lavish hotel and then meets with Jorgen Hannson, a successful entrepreneur who wants to fund Jacobs orphanage. The two talk shop for a bit and then Jorgen says he has to go as he is prepping for his daughters wedding the following day. He invites Jacob to come. Upon arriving late to the wedding due to traffic, Jacob catches the end of the wedding. He becomes the focus of Helene Hanson, Jorgen's wife. The glances become more obvious a...

The Cab Ride

Too good not to post. Thank you Mom so much for sharing and helping me keep perspective. The Cab Ride I arrived at the address and honked the horn. after waiting a few minutes I walked to the door and knocked.. 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor. After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940's movie. By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets. There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware. 'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman. She took my arm and we walked slowly toward th...

***updated*** Nine Words Men NEED to learn

click link to see a hilarious video:  woman translator NINE WORDS WOMEN USE (1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. (2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. (3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes .. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. (4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do I t! (5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.) (6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous s tatements a women can make to a man. That's ...

Introspective song for the travelers

https://youtu.be/wRWfyA1WxbE This is a great song if you travel on the road. Thanks Margaret Been Too Long On The Road By Bread Always look so good on the outside When you get to believing it's true, Then you know that you're on your way People tug on your shirt, say you're lucky You've got everything you want, but you don't yet you dare not say Go downtown people running around They climb slowly dragging you downtown, Horns make a dent in your mind Plush rooms make a blinding your eyes to see, blinding me Light, lovely light, won't you shine in my window Love, precious love, won't you fill every room Been too long on the road Maybe cynics veins are my life blood Maybe biting the hand that I feed so I'll try Try to understand what it is that devours your freedom Makes you drop what you used to hold in your hands All the things you planned Go upstairs with a someone who says she cares Like the devil she does what comes ever i...