Showing posts from January, 2012

A simple man

Call me simple, call me ridiculous, call me under zealous, or call me delusional, but I am a big fan of simple.  I love things that are technical like phones and gadgets and computers, but when it comes to messages, I like simple, in your face, "I get it" kind of messages.  I understand that interpretation is is a big aspect of that ideal.  What is straight forward to me, may be incredibly dense to others, and sometimes that role is reversed in my own life, what is contritely simple to others, is ridiculously outrageous to me.

I am specifically talking about Bill Watterson.  I have always been a fan of his famous and poignant comic strip, Calvin and Hobbes.  Sometimes the message is serious, other times humorous and playful and then there are days when it is both.  I have attached today's edition that i get in my email daily.  I found this so funny as I was eating  sushi tonight that I couldn't help but laugh out-loud, much to the amusement of the couple sitting nex…

My moms memorial

This was my speech (memories) at my moms memorial.  1/21/12

I will try and get the audio up soon.

This is a favorite of mine.  I just recently rediscovered it:
HOPI PRAYER of The Soul's Graduation:
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there,
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight
On the ripened grain.
I am the gentle Autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there.
I did not die.
My Spirit is still alive…

Nobody likes losing a family member, or anyone for that matter. The loss of a Mothers is  particularly hard because of the bond we develop with them.  It is said that the bond between a mother and child is stronger than any chemical bond in the universe.  I agree.

My mother was a wonderful and beautiful lady even until the day she drew her last breath.  She always had a smi…

I write, i rhyme...

I listen I learn, i grow I yearn

I need some accomplice, to help me sort it out

I need the light to break the dark

I need to love to break the lies

My beliefs limit my abilities

My thoughts drown out my passion

devoid of ideas, yet full of doubt.

I wish i could remember who i am

Don't try to find it for its not there, rather build it as fair as you see

dont listen to the haters, especially in your mind

ride your neon bmx bike and show them what you do

be that nurse or that gardner the best you can be

bum that cigarette light as if its your last

enjoy that sun as it beams on your face

text that message to the friend you love

use that youth as if it will never cease

be yourself and write your own

rhyme those lyrics like they are well known and feel the passion overflow

notice the clouds, see that tree

make sure you take the time to breathe...


So I have been feeling very uninspired lately.  I can't write, can't focus, severe bouts of anger and resentment, pain in my back and an all around shitty attitude.  As many of you know, I was in Maui and before you go off on your "poor bastard" speech, let me tell you it was no walk in the park.  It was long hours and lots of tension, which I try to field and normally don't let get into my psyche, but on this particular day it crept in like a fog off the pacific on a luke warm day.

I seemed to be running around like a mad witch in search of a newts eye on this particular program.  I couldn't focus and found very little respite in spite of it all.  I did have an amazing view from the 18th hole and the 9th coming  up behind us, but something was off.  I met our first security officer, Steve, on Friday for the start of the tour.  Steve was a very soft spoken but nice guy.  He greeted all the participants with a smile and an "Aloha".  His attitude sta…

Starting off the new year right

I just got this email from a friend.  I think it is a great way to start the new year.  I am always happy to get little reminders that I am on the right path and that I am affecting people in a good way.  I love you all and wish you a great 2012.  I am so thankful for all your support and love and really appreciate your friendship, readership and you as a person.

Happy New Year, my friend ...

As I've shared with you, I'm not a reliable blog participant, but I have periodically checked yours out over this past year -- and I just learned that your Mom has passed away.  Please accept my belated, yet sincere sympathies.

I hope this doesn't come across as patronizingly "I know how you feel" ...but I also lost my Mom this year.

It sucks ...

However, you have eloquently put down your thoughts and emotions during this sad journey, and I'm hopeful that with the oncoming days and weeks, you will remember with love and happiness all that she was to you ..

obviously, I never …