staring at a blank canvas
Morning and sunlight My mind is just as blank. Numb. Empty. Disenfranchised and discouraged I used to be so motivated. What happened? Where did I miss the turn? Was i supposed to go left instead of right? Maybe I should have stayed straight? I feel like a gigantic disconnected energy source. No affirmation. No love. alone and grasping. Its like if you were working on the space shuttle and your safety cord got disconnected. Floating aimlessly in space. I watch others emblazoned by their purpose and I feel like I am standing still. I try not to judge, but then i wonder, when is it my time? Do I get a turn? (reverting back to childhood) I have recently lost friends and work because of my posts. Some people say I am too extreme, others think I have "lost my marbles". Maybe there is some necessity or truth in losing ones mind in order to gain your life? I have way more questions than i have answers at this point in my life. I hope that love and trust have the answers.