Utter shock and disbelief
Its 3:16 am pacific time and I can't sleep. I tossed and turned all night. I'm in a position of unease. Stomach is turning, and I can't shake the fear of whats about to happen for the next 4 years. I never believed polls, yet I wanted to. I wanted to have a belief that the system would do the right thing, but I was wrong. My father, rest his soul, told me a long time ago..."I wouldn't want to grow up in this day and age". I thought he was just bullshitting me as he always did or feeding me some fearful story that he often did. I remember him telling me that certain friends weren't really friends and that I wouldn't be friends with them. I disagreed, he was right. I remember him saying that there would be 3 major airlines left in the world. I disagreed, he was right. I remember him saying that Bush would win in 2000. I disagreed, he was right. We now sit at the most historical time in history, when racial tensions are so thick you coul