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Well I am happy to say that as of today, I am off the singles market. Fatima and I decided to become boyfriend and girlfriend and I am excited about this new relationship. She is so amazing. She and I seem to feel the same way about relationships. I feel myself being able to fall for her without any restrictions. I am going to take my time since i don't want to scare her away. I have also decided not to charge into sex on this one. So far I like what I see. We both agreed to hold off on sex for a bit and when we are both ready we will go ahead. I get nothing but good vibes about this one. She is so beautiful that I cannot put it into words. Amazing in spirit and in person. She is the woman I have been waiting for. She is funny smart patient kind and loving. She likes me for who i am, not what I can become. Her lips are the softest and sweetest I have kissed to date. Her smile will brighten anyones day. Her laugh will make you smile and laugh at the same time. Her vo...

Things have definitly turned around...Mentally! Tuesday September 18th I met the woman of my dreams. We met on MSN chat. It was so random how we met. She was getting ready to log out, i logged in to see if any local folks were going out. I saw her name, clicked her profile and the rest is history. Her name is Fatima. It is such a beautiful name. She is 23, 5'8", tall, olive skin, brown eyes, exotic and an angel. We have been getting to know each other outside of sex as friends and it is lots of fun. I never believed in love at first sight, but I do now. It seems funny that if you aren't really looking, love walks out in front of you. The universe answers... Fatima is that miracle. She was sent from the heavens to find my lost soul in that chat room. Now we have incredible conversations and have shared very similar heartbreaks in our lives. I can't stop smiling when I think of her. I feel I had a lot of misdirected energies and Fatima is helping me redire...

Hard day today because I had to finally put the axe on Dana and I. I have to do the same with Lisa. I am so broke, I can't even afford to go get her from the airport. The thought has crossed my mind of becoming a Personal Trainer again. It would keep me busy and my mind off of money. I am really sad about where I am in life. I am upset that I don't save any money. I am resolving to spend less. I have to get my debts paid off. I hope to be more upbeat tomorrow Until next time

Spoke with Dana today. She said she does not want to speak to me anymore because of the celibate decision. I know that she is awesome. I think if timing were different, we would probably get married, but timing is way off. Nonetheless, i still like her My mom called me out of the blue today. She wasn't drunk, which was awesome. We talked about Maryann and the divorce being final and Christina. Christina and I are very concerned about her health in that place all by herself. I told her that i love her and that if she needs me, I will move back. It was great talking to mom. I love her so much. Until next time...

Woke up at 4:30...why? Alarm went off and I can't sleep. I have lots of stress in my life. I have applied with several different companies and I hope to hear something from somebody soon. I need to generate cash in my life. I have 5 bucks to my name. I have also decided to eliminate women in my life. they seem to be too much of a distraction. I feel like I am putting too much effort and energy into them and not me. I had to tell Dana that I like her alot, but I don't think i can continue to see her anymore. I also told Cora that she is amazing and fun and interesting, but I cannot hook up with her because I might get too emotionally attached. I think she understood. Melissa understood completely because our relationships is purely physical...we hang out when time permits. She totally understood exactly where i am coming from. She wants to be friends. Lisa will be a different story. I feel bad because I think she is buying or bought a ticket out to see me. I think i...