Chad Writes Stuff

I have to admit something. I hate coming to the south. It's not because of the friendly people, it's not about, being called sir or even because of grits, it's because it exposes a nerve, a nerve that isn't present when I am in California. I think when I am here, I often experience my emotions a lot more. I allow myself to feel. Maybe that's because I am not in cali and allow myself to feel and be present in the moment, all the while removing my mask of emotionless thoughts and feelings when I am home. I expose a nerve and say what if. What if I would have stayed in the south? Would I have continued with my faith, would I have married, would I have started a family, would I have found true love? Would I have married high school or college sweetheart? I'm not sure i will find the answers to that question. A bigger question that exists in all of our minds, which is why are we here. Is there a purpose? What is our sole mission? This is the nerve that is expos...

I saw this in an email this morning and thought I would share: In all of time and space, there is no challenge, pothole, mountain, chasm, hurdle, or foe larger than you. Not even close. Although if all you use to size them up are your physical senses... good luck! We don't live in a perfect world. Things go wrong, bills have to get paid, friends sometimes disappoint us, however, that doesn't change the fact that your life is amazing. If you look around you at any given time, you will see wonderful and amazing things. Savor the moment.. Where ever you are, being the you that you are right now at this moment, is enough to experience the most awesome moment of your life. Take a deep breath, thank your higher power for being healthy and well, give thanks for all that you have and you will find extraordinary value in the power of being. Normal mundane moments will become awe inspiring and breath taking seconds and will over power you senses. I talk about it often on my blog but...

Well a new year has started.  I don't feel different, just very alone.  I can't tell if I am growing or becoming stagnant in my life.  Everyone around me seems to be happy and in love, two things I am not. I am moving to Colorado soon.  It is a place I am unfamiliar with and I have to be honest, I am nervous.  I seem to spend all my time thinking about life and how I don't have a love or don't feel like a place has been set at the dining table of life for me.  It is a very weird feeling. My cousin Johnny, invited me to breakfast this afternoon at 1:00.  I had a cup of cappucino at " My favorite things " in Pensacola.  Its a cool little cafe that  hasn't been opened all that long.  When Johnny decided to head back to New Orleans, I decided to make my rounds at Cordova Mall.  I decided to catch, what was left of "Michael" at 3pm.  It was a great movie about love and learning to love in this crazy chasm of voidness.  It was a...