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Thought of the day for me

My life is a day in waiting. I wait around for things to happen and somehow, they don't seem to happen. I do all the things I am supposed to do, or feel i need to do. I get up, make my bed, clean my room, brush my teeth, feed the cats, clean my bathroom, shower, shave and get dressed. I look for work, not just any work, but meaningful work, something that will make me happy and allow me to grow. I don't want a job…something i just do, i want to make a difference and have people respect me and walk away feeling better.

Lately, I am stagnant. I don't feel like I am affecting anyone. My days start and end the same and I slowly feel myself dying inside. No sense of accomplishment, no love for what I do. I focus on what I want, however that isn't entirely possible when you can't visualize yourself doing anything. I dont' know if I should be working in technology, with people, or just as a cashier at a wal-mart. Nothing is clear, direction is unknown.

I don't want the answers, but I would love a nudge. Universe, God, infinite being---send me a sign. Help me help myself…a little nudge, thats all I need. Maybe a nudge with a spark. Something that inspires me, enlightens me. I am just at a loss and a little disconnected.


  1. You affect me in a good way!! Sometimes life needs to be stagnant for us to realize what we really want!

  2. Chad, i know the feeling. but you have SO MUCH to offer and such a loving heart. maybe look at your deep yearning as the sincerest form of prayer - and then maybe keep listening to your clearest intuitions without fear and see where they leads you?

  3. You have always had a deep and profound impact on those around you, that has never changed.
    Figure out what it is you love, then pursue it.

    Sounds easy, eh?


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