I wanted to...

I wanted to believe in humanity
I wanted to believe in love
I wanted to believe in the human condition
but I was let down

I wake now to a new day
on in which I know I don't matter
On the realization that life is random
and everything I learned was a lie

I wanted to believe in karmic goodness
in hope that life could be everything
that I could make a difference
but the truth is, i will never

Its not that simple
the unexamined life isn't worth living
you have to question and doubt everything
before you can begin to see what is real...